There are so many reasons I love what I do for a living, among which is the opportunity to give back to the community. A few months ago my friends, Carolyn and Steve Goldhaber, put me in touch with Kristen Berlacher, deputy director of Chicago’s Working in the Schools (WITS) regarding their upcoming Blackboard Affair fundraiser. WITS is a charitable organization whose primary focus is promoting literacy in the school systems. By developing relationships with students, volunteers help cultivate a love of reading and a greater enthusiasm for learning through one-on-one tutoring and student mentoring.. When Carolyn told me WITS was looking for a photographer to cover the Blackboard Affair, I was delighted to get involved. From as early as I can remember…well…knowing HOW to read, I was curled up with a book every chance I had. Whether it was risking car sickness on a road trip to finish a story, sitting in the front pew of church with my latest paperback purchase (hey, I was there!), or lying in bed at night with a flashlight and a novel, sheets forming a tent over my head so my parents wouldn’t catch me, I have always loved to read. It was because I had parents and teachers who cared enough to invest in me, and so it is very dear to my heart to help support an organization that devotes its time and resources to making a similar impact in children’s lives.

WITS Chicago held their annual Blackboard Affair this year at the Chicago Illuminating Company in the south loop area. Jaclyn and I walked through the doors of the spacious CIC, thrilled to be shooting in this former warehouse converted into one of Chicago’s trendiest wedding and event venues. There was a bar in the front registration room usually reserved for cocktail hour, and on the wall opposite the entrance was a magnificent framed floor to ceiling panting. We wandered into the next few rooms taking in the massive paintings, large framed mirrors, arched windows and marble bars. Self described as “renovated, modern architectual highlights,” blending “with an urbane loft aesthetic for a sophisticated, state-of the-art feel,” Chicago Illuminating Company was a sight to behold. Three large tables were lined with top notch prizes from local businesses for the silent auction. Bidders had the chance to win items such as a boat excursion, a custom Oxford Clothes suit valued at $3,200, tickets to a Chicago Cubs game, a wagon full of enough liquor to stock any personal bar, engagement or lifestyle sessions from several Chicago photographers, pampering for the day at a spa, and many other exciting services. Complete with lighting by Sound Investment and floral artistry by the Revel Group, the decor at the Blackboard Affair was breathtaking.

Food for Thought kept guests satisfied all evening with their delightful and creative hors d’ouvres, while DJ Kid Color spun the music throughout the event. Glitter Guts added to the excitement with fun sparkled background photobooth in the lobby! The night’s festivities concluded with an iPad raffle, drawn from halves of large playing cards participant wore during the event.

Two of my favorite images from the night were captured by Jaclyn, below. Chicago Illuminating Company has an expansive display of Grey Goose behind its back bar, and GG was, very appropriately, one of the Blackboard Affair’s official sponsors

I am incredibly grateful to have had Jaclyn Simpson shooting with me at Chicago Illuminating Company. It was a blast to spend time with her at the WITS Blackboard Affair, and she truly captured some amazing images!  I am so glad to be able to support Working in the Schools, and I look forward to seeing what they accomplish in the future.

(ALERT: Sensitive intimate portraiture in this post. May not be suitable for children or office viewing.)

Ahh the day after St. Patty’s. The amount of Irish blood running through my veins is probably near indiscernible, but the truth is, I just like holidays. I’m sentimental, not in a “I need to go all out to make this a real holiday” kind of way, but in a “let’s find another unique way to celebrate life today, since after all, it is a holiday!”  It’s funny to think the first time I stepped foot in Chicago, it was this time last year.  I didn’t do anything specifically for St. Patrick’s Day, but it was such a wonderful time that I fell in love with the city instantly.  How could I not with getting drinks at the Peninsula, riding the ferris wheel at Navy Pier, watching the sun set over the city at the Signature Lounge in the John Hancock Building on Michigan Avenue, and seeing the remnants of the green Chicago River! I’m glad to have celebrated again this year Wrigleyville style with a few close friends, and sipping some green beers for the first time.

But my first holiday as a Chicagoan was actually Valentine’s Day. And as a single girl, what better way to celebrate than with the gals, and getting to know some new friends who modeled for a sexy Valentine’s Day Boudoir! Over brunch only a few days before, Lillian Toma of Starlight Makeup, and fellow photographers Veronica Hinojosa and Jaclyn Simpson infused even greater vision into my upcoming shoot.  A simple boudoir session became a lively Valentine’s Day event! I am so excited to have collaborated with such talented individuals who I am blessed to call my friends.

As chance would have it, early check-in to our room at the Hotel Blake wasn’t available, but it was those golden moments I sat talking with Blair and Abigail that I got a glimpse into their beautiful uniqueness as women. The gracious staff at the Blake accommodated us as the rest of our crew showed up, and soon it wasn’t about the roles of clients and makeup artists and photographers anymore, but six women sipping champagne, telling stories and laughing together.

These are the moments I live for- when photography is a vehicle through which we open our hearts to each other and make a genuine connection. The mood was lighthearted all evening long, but as we worked together the girls revealed the depths of their personalities without words. That is where a woman’s beauty lies. In boudoir we celebrate a woman’s sexiness, but it is by disclosing her inner strength in those intimate moments that she truly becomes empowered. It’s not merely about sexual appeal, but about every aspect of a woman’s exquisite character. It was amazing to see that take place as we photographed Blair and Abigail. Blair emerged with a flirty, playful allure, while Abigail glowed with a demure beauty. Both were undeniable gorgeous and classy, and it was a true joy to work with them.  They’ve allowed me to share with you just a few of the images we came away with from our session:

I had so much fun working with Blair because she was queen of playful expressions. She would frequently smile as if she was about to share a secret, but instead chose to revel in the mystery of it herself for awhile. She was a natural.

Blair’s dramatic makeup was the perfect complement to her bold look and her sexy, tousled fresh-out-of-bed hair. Lillian’s artistry amazes me!

The rooms at the Hotel Blake were perfect for our shoot. I loved the mahogany bed with the red cushioned headboard- so appropriate for Blair’s Valentine’s Day lingerie!

I adored Abigail’s look- from the pearls to the sexy skirt that only revealed a peak at her thigh highs.

Veronica and I booked a room at The Hotel Blake with two beds so we’d both be able to spend one-on-one time with the girls. This was one of the only images I grabbed of Abigail in her pink lingerie, but it expressed to me her sweet nature so appropriately.  Lillian so tastefully applied Abigail’s makeup to subtly enhance her almond eyes. She was simply breathtaking!

Lillian Toma is truly a talented makeup-artist and I highly recommend her for any event. As one of the elite offering airbrush makeup in the Chicago area, it was exciting to see Lillian work. She also offered priceless styling assistance during our shoot. Jaclyn played the role of cinematographer as well as capturing some behind-the-scenes stills. I cannot wait to see what she came up with! We were so thankful for her help with our lights, posing ideas and for keeping us all laughing!! And Veronica was just a gem- a truly unique photographer with an eye for excellence.  I am so looking forward to working more with her in the future. After our session with Blair and Abigail, we are hooked on boudoir sessions! We are both now offering intimate portraiture as a regular part of our businesses. For more details on my collections, you may contact me through Jennifer Kathryn Photography or via email.

Here’s to celebrating life and beauty, holiday or not, one day at a time!

So as a photographer, cinematographer, artist or wedding professional, what value does Fast Track hold for creatives in the Chicagoland area?  In one word: community. Relationships keep us accountable and motivated, deepen our experience, and allow us access to more resources than we could ever gain on our own.  Even in our age of independence and getting it done ourselves, the old phrase, “No man is an island,” still holds true.  In an industry that is always evolving and growing, whether you are a newbie or a seasoned pro, we all have something to offer to each other.  Fast Track serves as a vehicle to bring together industry professionals who share the same values who are committed to investing into each others businesses as we see ours grow.  To paraphrase one of Dale Carnegie’s principles, as we become genuinely interested in people, they will be genuinely interested in giving back.

Dane Sanders, author of Fast Track Photographer and founder of this movement takes some time to touch on our FEO- “For Each Other” values in a short video:

Only days after WPPI in Las Vegas, an annual conference and tradeshow for wedding and portrait photographers, has come to a close, I am more energized than ever this year to have connected with an international community of photographers committed to being For Each Other.  Among many of the events that took place last week were several Fast Track gatherings as well as the inspirational UNITE groups formed by David Jay.  Dane also hosted numerous guests on Fast Track TV to share resources with the industry worldwide.  I had an opportunity to share a little bit about our Chicago crew, and I have to say, I am stoked on you guys! I am just so proud of our group and thankful to have a such motivated and inspiring colleagues in our area.

Tonight we’ll be gathering at Calumet Photographic downtown at 7pm (1111. N. Cherry Avenue, Chicago, IL) thanks to Bill.  (More details here.) We’re so thankful he’s made this venue available to accommodate our quickly growing group! But he took it one step further and secured approval through the VP for a special 20% Calumet products from 5:30-6:30. Talk about being For Each Other! Thanks so much, Bill!! We are so grateful for you!  Looking forward to seeing everyone later!

There I was, in the middle of work, suddenly feeling an inch tall and just like I was in first grade again. You know, that time I when I  tried on my little brother’s clip-on bowtie, forgot all about it and went to school anyways. Everyone was staring at me strangely all day, and I wasn’t quite sure why. At lunch, I looked down and about burst into tears when I saw the red bowtie taunting me. Or like that time in second grade I was passing out papers. All eyes were on me. I was just OH so helpful, clearly the best student in the class. After all, no one else had volunteered to help. And suddenly, out from under my skirt, my little pink slip slid down my knees and dropped at my ankles. I wanted to sink into the floor. Or that time in third grade I had a pool party and my crush actually showed up (poor guy). He dove headfirst into our four foot pool and got reamed out like I’ve never seen before. I wanted to die. Ahhh, but these are the things one leaves behind when we move onto adulthood. No more ghosts from the past to haunt. We move on, overcome our weaknesses, and live successful lives.

Except for the occasional moments when the first grade version of ourselves slips back into the picture. Ohhhh, like, tonight. I’ve been bartending on weekends to get to know Chicago and to supplement my winter income. I am such a natural. Ha. OK, a natural disaster, maybe. I keep meaning to change my middle name to Grace. It’s not in my genes, so I may as well make it part of my name if I’m to have any hope at all.  My day started out great. Church and lunch with friends, and a relaxing afternoon sipping tea and reading at Starbucks.  I went into work upbeat in spite of it being a slow night. And then I tried to open that dang bottle of Moscato. Nevermind my favorite wine key that has been with me through thick and thin the last four year got confiscated at the airport. Or that the cork felt like it had expanded entirely too much to be extricated. I had this. But that dang new wine key. It kept faltering. I braced it against my hip, pulled hard, and BAM! The bottle broke and a trail of blood was streaming from my finger. No worries. 20 minutes later, index finger wrapped in gauze and red duct tape and I was good to go. Sure, I looked a little bit like E.T. but that wasn’t going to stop me. Relatively smooth night, and I was rockin’ and rollin’ despite my injury. Until I shattered a pint glass all over the bar floor. I mumbled something about it not being my day, as the busser (whom I adore) came to my rescue. It’s ok; I flashed a smile to my patrons and continued as if nothing had happened at all. But then someone had to ring in those cappuccinos. Oh those wretched cappuccinos. I’m a bartender, not a barista. Creating perfectly frothed milk? Not my specialty. I can down a cup at Intelligentsia or Starbucks, no problem, but accomplishing such a task? Not so much. But here was my moment to shine. I was gonna show those coffees who was boss. Doin’ great, doin’ great, milk frothing, yeahhh it was frothing…..dialing down the pressure….and, uh-oh, it’s getting higher, now frantically turning the nozzle, crap it’s gonna overflow, and BAM!!! Frothy milk explosion. All over the counter and my cute black top. Awesome. I couldn’t even glance behind me at the onlookers. I felt my the heat creep into my face as I hurriedly began cleaning up my mess and presenting the cappuccinos to the server who ordered them.  Suddenly I was in first grade again. I could feel the icy stares and there was nothing I could do but bear it. It was like they were all laughing at me, but were too dignified to express it out loud. In my humiliation, I began lamenting the less than glamorous work it sometimes takes on the path I have chosen to fulfill my dream.

Until I was on the train ride home. A homeless woman asked for change. I offered her my leftover Panang curry. Not willing to accept just anything, she grilled me for what exactly I was giving. “How ridiculous,” I thought. “If you’re really hungry, who cares what it is.” (I admit I was short on compassion in the moment.) But call it pride or call it an unwillingness to settle for less- something in her inquiry resonated with me. I didn’t know her story or what made her ask just what type of food she was about to accept. Just as my customers didn’t know my story, and what vision lies ahead of me in my passionate pursuit of my artistry.  She stood there in humility, yet unwilling to budge in her preference of what she was looking for. Just as I had stood there, unraveled, and yet willing myself to overcome the awkwardness and finish the night in excellence.  Maybe there is some foolishness wrapped up in both of our positions, but I was moved and humbled on my way home tonight. And strangely encouraged. The truth is we all have the daily war to wage on whatever trials we may face. My borrowed Po Bronson book has seen quite a bit of the El lately. He comments, “The right question is not ‘What is the Crap Factor?’ The right question is ‘How can I find something that moves my heart, so that the inevitable crap storm is bearable?’ ” Overcoming lack of coordination behind a bar in order to freely pursue my dream of capturing the human spirit through photography? It hardly seems worth mentioning in light of what the woman I encountered tonight must be facing.  And so worth bearing when I get a glimpse of where I am going.

What is the crap factor in what you deal with on a regular basis? What moves your heart so deeply that any challenge is worth overcoming for the sake of fulfilling what is imprinted in your soul? Let’s remain steadfast to pursuing it. Even when our first grade self tries to sneak up on us.

My heart is full. I’m curled up on my couch with my laptop and a glass of wine. It is 3am, and this night owl is still processing, reflecting, dreaming. Only hours ago I sat with my friends at Calumet Photo Chicago listening to Justin and Mary Marantz on the last leg of their Spread the Love Workshop. Woven throughout the many valuable marketing insights and business principles was a lot of talk about setting goals and building momentum.  As they shared about living a life you love, being UN-ordinary (a Justin and Mary-ism), discovering what makes you unique as a photographer and an individual, and being intentional, everything I’ve learned in the past year came rushing back to me like a tidal wave. The timing could not have been more appropriate. It is exactly this time one year ago that several major changes were set into motion to lead me to where I am today. I have been lax about journaling these last few months (until very recently), but tonight I pulled it out to look back, and remember.

February 11, 2009. Rochester, NY. I told myself I was going to start overcoming my fears, be myself, and really start getting to know photographers in the area. I had been to GRPP (Greater Rochester Professional Photographers) meetings before, but it wasn’t until last year that I really made it a priority. “I walked into the meeting tonight trying not to feel fear. I pushed it aside, took a deep breath, and felt a rush of confidence as I walked into Booksmart [Studio]. I didn’t see anyone I recognized at first, and the fear tried to coax its way back in. I was half-tempted to turn around and walk out the door, but I smiled and willed myself to loosen up. Turns out I met some great people and truly ended up enjoying myself. Maybe I’m not a total trainwreck.” Ha! It may seem small, but that was the beginning of the end of this shy girl. Little did I know that I was on the cusp of forming some deeply meaningful friendships.

February 13-19, 2009. Las Vegas, NV. It was my friends and mentors, Brody Wheeler and Daryn Backal, that had originally convinced me to go to WPPI in 2008, and my second year I took a risk and decided to stay with some girls I had never met before. It put me outside my comfort zone and it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I was unsettled, unhappy with my job and on the brink of some major changes, and yet I still didn’t know just how profoundly this conference would affect me.  WPPI is what set in motion the renewal and pursuit of my vision and the forming of relationships that have fueled my growth this past year. As my plane departed McCarran airport and tears streamed down my face, I started this entry: “I am exhausted, inspired, emotional, motivated, excited, scared as hell, deeply moved, and so very in touch with my spirit. This is the place from which I want to live my life- I want to live from my heart….For the first time in so long, I feel PURPOSE.” I cannot even begin to express to you, my friends, after years of sifting through the remains of (what I had told myself were) crumbled dreams, just how much it meant to me to tap into a reignited passion. To realize that it was more than creating art that was driving me, but that it was the entire experience that would be most fulfilling to me and my clients. To be reminded not to change who I am for anyone. To be given “permission” to break out of my box of acting like I had it “together,” and just being real as I developed relationships with my colleagues and clients. To be challenged to connect, relate, and shoot from my heart. To take a risk and go after a life I love.

I could go on and on about the events and people that impacted my life over the last 12 months. My first trip out to Chicago in March. David Jay‘s talk on creating freedom in our businesses and Kevin Kubota‘s emphasis on workflow and developing a business mantra at PPSNYS (Professional Photographers of New York State) State Convention in Albany. My travels to Florida, Philadelphia, San Jose, Vegas again, LA….Italy! My mom’s ever-growing support for me and belief in my crazy dream, and my father’s legacy of calloused hands and working hard to get what you want out of life. Developing friendships and receiving priceless instruction from Kenny Kim, Bob and Dawn Davis, and Dane Sanders.  Meeting friends and fellow photographers in Chicago and across the country who have opened their hearts to me, and encouraged me in my journey. I cannot even do justice to how deeply each of them has influenced my life in their unique ways, and I anticipate dedicating future posts to what an incredible investment they have made into me.  Every insight has been progressive, building upon a rock solid foundation for my business and life.

It may sound trite, but I just can’t stop saying it- I am just so thankful. I am so blessed. Last year I was afraid to walk into a small meeting of photographers in Rochester, and now I facilitate a group for photographers to connect in Chicago, a city I hadn’t stepped foot in until 11 months ago. Tonight I sat around sipping drinks with friends- not the “talk-about-the-weather-and-what-kind-of-camera-we-use” friends, but the true “pour-our-hearts-out-and-share-our-hopes-and-fears-I-got-your-back” kinda friends. (Wow. Seriously just blown away by how incredible each of them really are.) Last year I was using all of my energy to build someone else’s business and now I have the freedom to invest into my own. I share this not to brag, but to express my gratitude for all those who have believed in me and poured into me. And because if any of this strikes a chord in you, I want to encourage you to believe you truly have what it takes to go after what you want, and to live a life you love. One year ago, I was a shy, scared girl in Rochester with no direction. And tonight I sit here in the wee hours of the night in my apartment in Chicago, still a little scared, still a little shy, but full of vision and empowered to do whatever it takes to see it through. It has not been easy. Change is expensive. There have been many obstacles that would tempt me to give up altogether. It has already cost me massive amounts of things I care about. I am nowhere close to being “there,” yet. But I’m overcoming my fears and taking on new challenges one step at a time.

Listening to Justin and Mary today, I was reminded of so many disciplines I “should have” put into practice by now.  I feel a little bit like I “should be” so much further along than I am. And then I hear Dawn saying, “‘Should’ is no longer a part of my vocabulary.” And Dane, on redemption, “Renegotiate your commitment, and stick to it.” I look back and see just how far I have really come. It hasn’t happened overnight. There were a lot of late night talks with friends, a lot of laughter and tears, a lot of goal writing, a lot of strategizing and working long hours.  There will be plenty more of those nights, and many days of wondering if I can actually accomplish what I’ve dreamt I can.  But I cannot do anything less than I’m made to do. “I have everything I need within me,” I wrote a year ago. Let’s believe that. Let’s write down our goals and have faith that we can accomplish them. Let’s not settle for anything short of the live we love. Let’s be remarkable.

I juggled my camera and lighting equipment as I walked into The James Hotel from the brisk Chicago air.  Being new to the city and having the most fabulous sense of direction(!), I drove around the block twice before pulling up in front of The James. The valet gave me a comforting smile as I approached him, and I knew my little red car was in good hands. I entered the lobby of the boutique hotel and instantly loved it- from the large windows, the modern decor and the friendly staff. I was talking to the gentleman at the front desk and had barely gotten the words out my mouth, when Melissa descended the stairs and greeted me with her warm, beautiful smile. Her energy was contagious.

Melissa Diep had asked me a few weeks ago if I’d like to join her for a fashion shoot at the James Hotel, and I was thrilled!  While I’ve dabbled in fashion, my emphasis has been primarily families and couples- weddings, engagement sessions, lifestyle shoots. So I was amped to have an opportunity for a different kind of creativity.

We walked into the luxurious bathroom-turned-dressing-room. Beautiful Horacio Nieto pieces were delicately hanging everywhere.  The models were a vision to behold, and were laughing and primping playfully. Diem wore a flirty white chiffon dress that could easily have been a beach wedding gown, and she was zipping up Maryam’s stunning olive taffeta dress. Typically working behind the scenes as one of Chicago’s up and coming talented hair and makeup artists, Diem Angie Nguyen, is as radiant inside as she is on the outside. She was such a natural in front of the camera and could change her expression on cue from to sultry, playful or serious. Maryam Subhani originally joined our session as Diem’s hair and makeup artist, but she was glowing with such sheer beauty herself that we had to kidnap her for our shoot. Maryam’s passion is her art but she has stepped into some opportunities lately to shine in the spotlight herself. And we are so glad to have had such a gorgeous and gracious addition to our day! Melissa whisked Maryam away while Diem and I went off to create some photographic magic ourselves. We switched half way through the session and I was amazed at how both girls brought such unique styles to the camera. It was also so interesting to see the difference in Melissa’s artistry and my own, and the models even commented on how differently we worked.  That is the thing that continually inspires me in my field, and most creative industries- the ability of an artist to interpret an experience and express it in a remarkably unique way. Every shoot is an opportunity to tap into one’s personal style and continue to discover it, to reinvent it, and to create beauty.  I am truly blessed to do what I love.  Thanks to Diem and Maryam for being incredible to work with, and Melissa for having me along. Check out these stunning women!

I tend to prefer a more authentic, natural look when it comes to my post-production. But in the vein of reinventing, it seemed appropriate to play with some color a bit for the fashion shoot at The James Hotel. LOVE this one of Diem!

This girl knows how to work the camera! I adore her sexy and then sultry glances below.

Diem humored me on this one! Beyond the lobby of the James Hotel there is a foyer that leads to the elevators and the spa downstairs. There is a strange and interesting mural on the wall that shows a woman’s hand, and a tree sort of doubles as her mid-section. I’m still wrapping my mind around it, but thought we’d play a little bit with Diem mirroring the mural. It’s kind of odd, but there’s a part of me that likes it!

It was so fun playing with the window light and still using some fill in addition. I love Maryam’s expression in the second one as she basks in the glow of the light- something about it really moves me.

Nothing sexier than a woman on a pool table, right?  Especially when she’s as gorgeous as Maryam.

Many thanks to the wonderful staff at The James Hotel for hosting us.  I stopped by The James again last night to check out the Bridal Lounge by Chicago Social Brides and was blown away. The Modern Event Space and James Club were decked out by the city’s top designers and stylists and I had the chance to meet some truly exceptional wedding vendors.  Several stood out in particular and I’m so thrilled to have met Courtney of Courtney Callahan Paper, Natalie and her staff at Hello Darling floral and event styling, Rebecca with Dilly Lily floral, and the refreshing Mary Nisi of Toast and Jam Disc Jockey. Looking forward to connecting with them more in the future!

It was a chilly Chicago day, but that didn’t stop 9 photographers, three models, two make-up artists and a troupe of assistants from venturing out to Sugar Grove, Illinois on Sunday for a Winter Trash the Dress Session. Trash the Dress? What’s that all about? Among the shifts that wedding photography has made over the past few years is an emphasis on bridal portraiture as a means of celebrating a bride’s beauty through a session dedicated solely to her in her wedding dress.  Trash the Dress takes that a step further! A bride’s wedding dress is, arguably, the most important detail of her day. She’s spent months looking through bridal magazines, traipsing across town with her friends, and shopping at boutiques, and when the decision is made, this is the one thing on which she spares no expense. To wear it for one day. Albeit the most important day of her life. Hopefully she has hired a photographer who is every bit as passionate about her gown as she is, and who will dedicate plenty of time to capturing her in her radiance, alone and with her groom. Even still, I have so many brides who are just dying to push the envelope and go down to the beach or out to the barn, but are concerned about getting their dresses dirty before the reception. This is why I love Trash the Dress. We schedule a secondary session after her wedding, and then we have some real fun! The stress of keeping things running smoothly at the wedding has passed. The bride can get all dolled up again if she wishes, or opt for a more casual hairstyle as well. Sometimes her man joins in (I love when they do!), and we have a Day After Session that focuses on the couple.  And this is where it’s time to let loose!  It’s another opportunity to capture the essence of who the bride (or couple) truly is, in an environment that most suits her. It can be a carefree, spontaneous time of silliness, or it can be a glam high-fashion shoot.  From jumping in the leaves, to going to the beach, to horse-back riding, to walking around in an urban area, the possibilities are endless.  And while we do say “trash” the dress, we don’t (necessarily) mean ripping it to shreds or destroying it completely. But the bride can rest assured if she gets it muddy or wet- thank goodness for dry cleaning!  When all is said and done, it’s an opportunity for artist and client to continue building their relationship and to create some truly powerful images to celebrate a couple’s commitment.

Chicago’s Melissa Diep has a vision to give all photographers an opportunity to start offering this to their clients. Last summer she started organizing Trash the Dress sessions at killer venues across Chicago as an outlet for photographers to connect, practice lighting and posing, and build their portfolios.  She hires stunning models and talented hair and make-up artists for each shoot.  But even more noteworthy is Melissa’s dedication to finding exquisite dresses for each shoot. She almost never uses a dress more than once, and gets them custom made from various places in Chicago and even internationally.

This was my first Trash the Dress with Melissa, and it did not disappoint! We arrived at the venue in Sugar Grove, a beaten path just off the main highway leading to an old house, a barn, a silo, and boundless ideas.  The dresses were flawless, the models were stunning, and their hair and makeup was meticulously styled by the artists to match the mood each model portrayed. Melissa even collaborated with The Left Bank to acquire some ravishing jewelry and headpieces. Amidst the winter chill, the models were gracious and fun while we, as photographers, feasted in this playground of textures and light.  Not only did I take away some incredible images, but I left with a unique experience that allowed me to play with lighting and posing to a degree I’m not always at liberty to on a shoot.  It was empowering to construct and compose my own shots as well as learn from the other photographers present. We even collaborated on a few concepts with impressive results. I am so thrilled to have been a part of the Chicago Winter Trash the Dress.

Thank you Melissa for organizing another successful event!  And many thanks to our gorgeous models Jennifer, Nicole, and Adrianna and our brilliant make-up artists Diem Angie-Nguyen and Maryam Subhani.

My first encounter with Fast Track Photographer was last year at WPPI through my friend, Carl Johnson.  He had been so impacted by Dane Sanders‘ seminar that he had to get me a copy. Little did I know what a treasure was to be found in these pages.  I let a few months go by before I picked it up. I was a little skeptical. “Fast Track Photographer?”  I had been shooting for two and a half years, desperately seeking vision, but knowing there was certainly no fast track in the photography world. Like anything worthwhile, photography is a craft that must be practiced over and over and over to be mastered.  But one day in May I decided to pick it up and see what this “Fast Track” thing was all about. I could barely put it down.  What I was reading was not a photography manual or an inspirational book, but a resource that would help me discover my core strengths and passion as an individual and how to transpose those  abilities into practical skills for my business.  There is no fast track to honing our skill- or discovering who we are. But the concept is that as a business, as a brand, as photographers, we are more than the images we produce. “The real value is in the engine that creates the art- the photographer.” To invest in the value of our businesses, we need to invest in ourselves. Getting clear on what we do best and focusing on that is the heart of the book.

So when another good friend, Kenny Kim, encouraged me to go to Dane’s Fast Track Roadshow workshop in Chicago a few months later, I was all in. And it did not disappoint. I’ll save my review for another post, but the truth was it changed my life and business in many ways. And the biggest contribution was that Fast Track introduced me to an entire community of people (through the workshop and the forums) who, in this very competitive industry, were truly committed to being FOR each other.  A sense of community is cornerstone to truly thriving in all areas of our lives.  While our individuality must continually be cultivated, our personal, professional, and spiritual lives are enriched profoundly when we are connected to a group of people with common ideals and understanding. It is in realizing what we have to offer to a community that, often, our own sense of self is strengthened and we become clear on how our personal vision fits into the bigger picture.

Surrounding myself with individuals committed to challenging and contributing to one another has fueled my growth as a business owner.  It is with this same vision that Fast Track groups, an outlet for creatives to come together in a dynamic supported body, was birthed.  These communities are now being launched all over the country and are bringing together artists who share the same values, who want to invest in one another. It is non-exclusive and non-competitive. It’s not about any one personality, or a brand, but about a collaboration between individuals who share the same passions.  So when Dane asked if I’d facilitate in Chicago, greater than my fear of stepping into a new territory was my conviction to see such a group rise up.  And when 20 of us gathered 2 weeks ago at Matt and Stevi Savage‘s place in the South Loop for our first meeting, the response was overwhelming. After spending a good 45 minutes just hanging out and getting to know one another, we convened round table style to get to the heart of what Fast Track is all about.  As we went around the room introducing ourselves, it became clear there was a greater desire for collaboration, relationship, accountability, and sharing of our resources with one another.  I looked around the room, amazed at all the different connections that were made to bring us together that night.  We were blessed to have Bob Davis with us, and he shared from his own experience the value of building relationships and how being tied into a larger community can keep us grounded. Bob and Dawn have been such an incredible example to me and to the whole photography industry of what it means to be “for each other,” as they conduct their lives and business with a genuine heart to give, and an authentic desire to connect.  Ted Suss (Neil Enterprises and Wedding and Portrait Photographers of Chicago) also joined us, and offered himself to the community as a resource. We walked away after our first meeting, some of us having talked late into the night, inspired and empowered. Can I just say, I truly love these guys!!

(Image below taken by Matt Savage of Avery House Creative.)

Collage below includes images from Avery House Creative, Otto Rascon Photography and Jennifer Kathryn Photography.

So much of our success is dependent upon creating the right environment for ourselves. While I tend to be more spontaneous and gravitate towards things that don’t require planning, I’ve realized that things I do not commit to do not happen. We have launched Fast Track Photographers- Chicago with the goal of committing to be FOR EACH OTHER, as we meet monthly to continue facilitating these values in our community. Our next meeting will be on Monday, February 8th at 7pm. (More details can be found here.) We’d love for you to join us!!

“The wise man travels to discover himself.” James Russell Lowell

Travel is a part of who I am. It’s in my blood.  I was fortunate enough to take my first international trip when I was 15– to India. My parents were puzzled that I’d want to travel to India of all places, but I was curious, passionate and stubborn, and they relented. I went to India with open eyes and a heart to learn. And I have never been the same.  It sparked an insatiable hunger to see the world and to experience new cultures. I’ve since returned to India, traveled to Hong Kong, mainland China, Tibet, and the Dominican Republic.

But it had been entirely too long since I had been overseas.  I was starting to get restless. So naturally, when I first started talking with Kenny Kim months ago about his PhotoVenture workshop in Italy, my curiosity was piqued.  There is something about getting out of my natural routine and experiencing a different way of life that gets me in touch with my heart and the things that are really important.  It is all too easy to get in “automatic” mode and not be fully present.  Travel is one of those new experiences, as Herbert reminds, that awakens the childlike wonder in me that I often allow to become dormant.

After hearing Kenny’s vision for the workshop- to discover the true Italy, to capture our experience through the lens of our cameras, and in the process discover more of ourselves- I was convinced this was where I needed to be in September. So much so, that even though I had a wedding scheduled before the end of the workshop, I decided to go regardless and just leave early.  Kenny partnered with Max Brunelli & Cristiana Chiacchierini, a husband and wife team who design custom tours of Italy geared specifically towards creatives. I knew we were in for a treat when I learned they are also good friends of the extraordinary Kevin and Clare Kubota, and play a key role in their incredible Secret Italy workshop. But in reality, I had no idea what was coming…

We went out a few days before the workshop to see Rome, Florence, and Siena. I was elated to have extra time on the front end since I was leaving early. I was so excited on the flight that I didn’t sleep much. I journaled, I voraciously digested as much Italian as my brain could hold, and I began planning just how perfect everything was going to be. [Insert snide remarks for my idealism.] Of course, when I dream about how wonderful traveling is, I always remember the glamorous moments- not the ones when we arrive 10 hours later exhausted, hungry, dirty and sweaty. All I can think about at this point is taking a shower and changing before exploring Rome for the day. We wander aimlessly on the street where our bed and breakfast is supposed to be located asking all the locals in our impressive Italian if they knew where the Casa di Rossi is. 30 minutes later we find it (right next to a shop who’s owner told us he had no clue where it was) and all I can think about is the steam from the hot shower.  We manage to get our ridiculously large suitcases up three flights of stairs. (The lift was broken- go figure.) I’m beaming. We’ve made it.

And the room is not ready. Won’t be for another hour or two. What?! I start having a mini meltdown. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not opposed to roughing it. I’ve used squatty potties in India and gone a month without a real shower. I didn’t wear makeup in Tibet or care what kind of shoes I was wearing. I’ve done my share of hiking and camping in the pouring rain where you just get used to the idea that your clothes and hair will be plastered to your skin the entire trip. But this was Europe.  Italy, no less. How could I look less than fabulous wandering the streets of Rome? Kenny looks at me like, “Seriously?”  (I jest; he was a LOT more understanding than that.) But he says, “We’re traveling. This is what happens. We need to be flexible.” In that moment I had a decision to make. I could be upset and squander the opportunity to enjoy the incredible privilege of being in Italy. Or I could accept the present, adjust my expectations and embrace the very inconsistencies that make travel such an adventure. I am thankful I chose to do the latter.

This was the first of many lessons I learned while in beautiful Italy, and I had plenty of opportunities to practice surrender. I hadn’t realized how inflexible I had become. The moment I met Max, he smiled, wrapped us each in a big hug, and told us to “Relax! Enjoy!” He truly lives that. And he continually challenged our way of thinking. I pulled out my iPhone less and found myself soaking in the fellowship of a good meal and great company more frequently. I worried less about things going the way I wanted, and remembered the delight I’ve always had in the unexpected. Experiencing the Italian way of life had such a profound impact on me.  I learned not to take things so seriously. I saw the beauty of living simply. I observed how hard Italians work and yet how much more passionately they celebrate and enjoy life’s small pleasures. While I discovered some of my inhibitions, I also discovered in myself the great capacity to overcome them and live more freely.

It will take a few more posts to tell of all the adventures we had and the laughter we shared, and to explain just how profoundly this trip impacted me artistically, personally and as a photographer. I have hundreds of images to share to which I simply cannot do justice in this small space. But take a glimpse at just some of the wonderful things I was blessed enough to partake in while discovering Italy and discovering myself this September at PhotoVenture with Kenny Kim.

I absolutely adore the Colosseum in Rome. We had so much to see, but I look forward to the day I get to return and explore it some more.

This view of Firenze (Florence) from the Cattedrale Santa Maria Firenze del Fiore was well worth the 463 challenging steps to the top!

Ponte Vecchio in Firenze (Florence) was absolutely breathtaking.

Montepulciano in Tuscany.

I am so blessed to had the opportunity to travel to Italy this summer. I cannot wait to share more images! In the meantime, if you’re hungry for more, check out Kenny Kim’s latest post on an incredible experience we had while in Assisi.  And please consider coming with us in February for the next PhotoVenture! If you allow yourself to experience the Italian way of life, you will never be the same. Ciao!

I am thankful today for my health and for safe travels in the midst of yesterday’s traffic. I’m thankful to have an extravagant meal in front of me and to be sharing it with family. I’m thankful to Mom for taking such joy in preparing our feast, and to Tim, who energetically helped me unload the Uhaul earlier in the day. To even have boxes of clothes, books and possessions to unpack makes me so very grateful.  I think of my friends Stevi & Matt Savage spending their holiday in India and wonder what kind of dinner they must be eating. I reflect on just how little those they are spending time with have, and I realize how blessed I am.

I’m thankful today to have so many extraordinary people in my life- that I even have friends to love and miss in Rochester, beloved friends across the country periodically checking in on my adventure, and friends in Chicago who will soon become my new community of loved ones.  I think of how those I care about have rallied around me in my journey these last several years and I’m filled with joy.  I am thankful for the opportunities that have come my way this year, the amazing people I have met, the incredible places I have traveled, and for the unlimited possibilities that lie ahead of me.

Hours later after having spent the day relaxing, watching football, wishing others a Happy Thanksgiving, and enjoying dessert I’m still counting my blessings.  Today, I am thankful to be alive.  I am thankful to have another day to laugh, to breathe fresh air and to celebrate beauty in my life.

And because I have a thing for bridges, I am thankful to have snapped this one last photo of the Rochester skyline the night before I left:

Tomorrow I’ll be celebrating Black Friday style by hitting the stores. But stay tuned for much anticipated Italy images to be posted soon!